Since I've made a promise to continue with part II so there you go. to be true, I've been update part II 2 days after part 1 but I do private the post because I have feeling that its maybe can hurt a lot of people. so i manage to make a new one
To those who think I cant move on with my life it is actually not true. I do have a good life not only now but for the past 20 years. I do have my mom and dad who is never stop loving me every single day. I have a friends maybe not a lot like some of you but I swear my friends is real. I can count on them as much as they can count on me. I do have someone extra special that treat me like a princess for the past 2 years.
As time past by, my memory became weak day by days with is I cant remember a lot of thing. I forget where did I put my phone 10 times a day. I don't really remember what I eat for breakfast. I cant remember Mursyid's IC number even though I already asked him more than 20 times and sometime I forget what is his phone number and the only number that I can remember is mine, ayah's and home. plus, my school memories with my friends already fade away
And what make you think I can wrote about someone with a specific details ? yes babe. 'he make me constantly remember everything'. I've courage to wrote it down and post to public because I know I am not the only one felt the same way. someone there still can call me at 2 am in the morning just to go back to old memories to laugh and cry and cry again for what both of us have been through. it funny to think how a stupid love actually can break two hearts deeply without anyone noticed. more than that, people do think we both don't care about each other anymore, but the true is we still can grab a cup of coffee, change a song to each other went we thing it means something, tell a random stories from a movie, share a problem that we thought no one could understand, and sometimes when we stop contact each other we both know the other one still there to care no matter what.
I am not here to break anyone relationship neither to be back to my old relationship. as I grow older I started to realized all the things before make me who I am now. I never regret no thing at all. If I can turn back time to fix everything, I still do nothing. I remember how we both actually stuck together before went we already have someone else in our life. its felt kinda right with those bucket list that we thought we were going to fullest. but then we realized things changed, all the thing that we felt right is really wrong at a very first place.
I broke a heart of the one who is love me the way I am besides he accept me the way I am no matter how hurt he is and still here with me till now. and so do him. he along with got a pretty and a really nice girl that believed in him and give a damn chance for what ever he done.
last, I am really sorry for what had happened for the past 2 years and more. sorry for breaking anyone heart and I do forgive to anyone that break my heart too. I do promise not to talk about this anymore nor write it on my blog. I was thinking that I should not continue to write about this and make a part II but ain't a promised is a promise ? by the way, thank you for all the journey ! when I am old and alone I will remember that I once held something truly beautiful but complicated. Its funny not to believe, but we accept the love we think we deserve aren't we ?
